Portrait

This is my Beautiful friend Tatiana, and her WONDERFUL husband Jonathon! They are Pregnant! Couldn't you tell by the baby bump? The picture in this picture, was taken by, ME! can you believe it?! It looks so professional! Right?! Yea, That's RIGHT! I'm aspiring to be a photographer! So, anyone out there want to let me take their pictures??? I guess I should post how the pictures look and not just how they look printed on the wall... Stand by... I'll work on that! ;)

Keeping Busy!

Well, My darling little angel face is in Mississippi this week. 9 days to be exact! Its been good and bad so far! (we are at day 5). The bad part has just been missing all the little funny things she does and says. The way she gets in bed with me early in the morning, and gives me her sweet baby kisses, and tells me she loves me. Or as she puts it "I none you boo boo mommy"... okay, gotta stop, here come the water works! The good part has been that I've been getting lots done around the house. I was able to clean the ceilings, and the fans, and the floors, and the bathroom. I've been cleaning everything in my path! And I've been doing some sewing projects that I've been waiting to do for a while now! Like I made these Pillows for my bed. And guess what I made them out of... Yes, a friends old bride maids dress! wow right! Thanks Suzy for donating me the dress!!!

I have to say for someone who has never had a sewing lesson, and, doesn't practice much, AND using fabric from a brides maids dress. This is some pretty darn good work! I'm impressed! and YOU should be too!

Soooo, anywho, that's what I've been up to! What have you been up to??

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My Mothers Day....

(My Mothers Day Gift)

Well, I haven't shared this with my 9 followers yet... but... I'm in process of a separation/divorce. I married my husband when I was 22 years old, and, now I'm 27, and looking back, I realize that no one should get married that young... maybe not even at 27... but regardless... this is my situation. I think that at 22, you don't know what you want out of life yet. You don't even know what there is to want out of life. And, now that I'm a little older, I see that. I only hope I can pass that information along to my daughter, and I hope she listens (my mom is saying... yea, like you listened to me??? ha!) lol.... okay okay... yea mom... go ahead and say it "ya told me so"....

Anyway, My husband and I had a good life. But, after time, and after growing up a little, we both wanted different things with our lives. I want to be out in the world, mingling and meeting new people, and breathing fresh air. And, He likes to sit on the couch with his computer in his lap watching his reality show dramas. We were living as room mates, and, we had our issues as well (which I won't get into) but, the bottom line is, neither of us showed interest in being married, or working on our marriage. I did make 1 HUGE mistake, I don't regret the mistake, but I do wish that it would have happened in a different way. After months of each of us doing our own thing, I started building a relationship with someone else. Not a physical relationship, but a relationship none the less. I did spend time with this person, and I had to come clean about it. And I did, and obviously my husband wasn't happy about it. We did try to go to counseling, but, (even though he puts it all on me...) NEITHER of our hearts were into working it out. I'm a firm believer that actions speak louder than words. And his actions were "cool.... " and his words were "lets work it out" but, nothing happened to make be ever believe he wanted that. And I can't continue to live with someone who puts little or no effort into something that should be MOST important. And I can admit that I didn't put much effort into it either after a while. I was glad to be out of the situation.... He and I agreed that we must remain friends because we have always been friends, and because we have a daughter in common. And she will ALWAYS be in our lives, and for that, its MOST important to remain friends. I helped him with his budgeting, and his check book. I let him come do his laundry at my place, with my laundry detergent, and my electricity, and my gas. I've cooked him dinner a few times so he can spend some time with McKenzie (even tho we split her 50/50, its nice to spend time together and all).... We have remained pretty cordial thought it all, and its been quite nice.

And then Mothers Day came. And, SILLY ME expected that he would have done something for me for Mothers Day. I thought, maybe he'll come over, and make me breakfast (with my food from my fridge), Or wouldn't it be cool if he came over, and did my dishes and vacuumed for me. Or at the very least he could have gotten a card and had McKenzie draw in it and give it to me on Sunday morning when I woke up. (you know, cause Mothers Day is like X-Mas for Mommies, we enjoy surprises and all...) but, no... NADA.... well, he did send me a text message. I guess that was.... thoughtful? I don't know... I tried to make the best of it anyway. My sweet sweet girl did give me the best mothers day present, with out even knowing what mothers day is. She came and got in bed with me around 6am. She kissed me and said "I love you boo boo mommy" and she laid on my chest, first tummy down, and then tummy up, and then she rolled over, and put her feet in my back, and then she gave me more kisses, and somehow, some way, some time, she fell asleep. And when I finally woke up, I looked over, and see this sweet baby, snoring away with her little Minnie Mouse tucked in her little arms. We spent the day at my moms, and it was a nice day. Very low key, and I did have to leave early because I just kept getting choked up over the fact that, I didn't even get a mothers day card......... a simple card.... I guess that's too much to ask for.... SO, now I know to not expect much. And I'll always remember to be grateful for the gift of McKenzie. She's THE MOST beautiful child that ever lived... Looks just like her mommy... :)

PS... I guess I should mention that Kel said he had something for me.... but not until Tuesday... And not to sound like a bitch.... but Mothers Day isn't a surprise day that pops up outta no where, and its NO SURPRISE that its on a Sunday, and Sunday is the day that you celebrate mothers day. NOT TUESDAY.... I mean... Think about it this way... I have McKenzie on Fathers Day weekend. What if I said, "Well, You can celebrate with her on Wednesday, because that's your day with her" How awful would that be??? to be sitting around on fathers day, with out your child, because its not your day? But instead, I have to take time out of my day, to go and get him a card, and have McKenzie draw in it for him, and then take her to him on Fathers Day, because that's the day you Celebrate it, not the following Tuesday....

I prayed this morning. I prayed that God would help me get over it, and to help me stop crying every time I think about it, and pray to not take revenge on the situation. I'm going to have to keep praying....