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mac, sporting pink and hearts

There is one thing, that is my favorite, and will forever be my favorite… maybe this is the one thing that defines who I am, and what I love, all wrapped up into one… that one thing is… VALENTINES DAY!!! I love it! I love everything about it… I know I know it’s a cheesy hallmark card made holiday… and it’s not that I love the holiday… its all the things that go with it… I love PINK, I love HEARTS, I love PINK HEARTS… what could be better than that! don’t you just get a huge smile from ear to ear when you think about big pink hearts??? I love to decorate my life with pink hearts!!!! When all seems wrong with the world, I just remember all those pink hearts that I love so much, and it makes me feel so much better!!! Like I said… its not the Holiday… It’s the HEARTS! And I love that everywhere you go during the middle of January, and February, there are big, small, med, soft, hard, bright, light, fruit, chocolaty HEARTS! EVERYWHERE! I LOVE IT!!!

playing favorites

Recently, someone was asking me a lot of questions... What’s your favorite movie? What’s your favorite song? What’s your favorite food? My answer to most of those questions was "I don't really have any favorites... I like everything"

Is it weird that I don't have any one thing that is a favorite???

I have lots of favorite songs, and movies, and foods, and clothes. But there isn't anything one song or movie, or anything that I can call my one and only all time favorite.

When asked what my favorite movie was, I replied, "uhh, hmm... Well I love the movie Little Women". Which is true! I do love that movie! But I also love a dozen others.

Every other song that comes on the radio (or on my Pandora Station “Corinne Bailey Rae” playlist) is my all time favorite, and I just have to turn it up and rock out… or, grove out… because Nora Jones, and John Mayer isn’t really “rock out” music… Right?

What does that say about me? That I'm indecisive? That I don’t have good taste so I just like everything? That I’m shallow, and everything is “good enough” for me… By the way… I do feel like I’m shallow… I hardly put deep thought, or meaning into things… or at least I feel like I don’t… Or that I am capable of choosing just 1 thing, and being satisfied? Is it that I'm unsatisfied??? Now, I think I've just figured it out.... I’m never satisfied... This is something that I hear often... Or maybe it just means that I love so many things, that I can't just choose one, so I choose them all! I'm a Lover! I can't help it!!! I don’t know what’s wrong with me… I feel like I’m searching for myself, but I have no time to find me… Sometimes I feel like I don’t even know nor have the words to say what I mean, or how I feel, or what I want to do, or how I want to be… I’m feeling really crazy! What’s wrong with me??? I don’t mean to sound like a whiny brat… I’m just feeling lost today… Can someone come find me? Thank you much! (in the words of my 2 year old!)