Time is flying!

I can't believe how the time is passing! This year is almost over. I feel like it just started! So much has happened in such a short time! The other day I was looking at some old pictures of my little Mac. I can't believe how much she has grown up!!!! In the blink of an eye she went from being a baby, to being a little girl! She is the sweetest thing these days! While we were making these “pup cakes” as she call them, she kept offering to make me coffee! OH HOW I LOVE THIS GIRL!!!! Every time we drive by a star bucks she asks me if I want to stop and get coffee, and when I do get coffee she says “oh, mommy, thank you!!!” with her exasperated little voice. I wonder if she is thinking, “oh yea lady, you’re a grump and you need some caffeine!” Or if she is thinking, “Mmmm, I heart coffee just like my mommy!” Either way, she is right on both accounts!

Like I said, time is really flying. It’s almost Halloween!!! I live for the fall! There are so many wonderful things that happen in the fall. First of all, I get to start wearing my jeans and boots, and sweaters! There is nothing better to me than a pair of skinny jeans, and tall boots! They just scream DIVA on the loose! HA HA! Then there is how the air changes and it starts to cool down and always feel fresh. I love the fresh autumn air when it hits my face, and I just feel so alive! I wonder why certain people love certain seasons. I wonder if it has anything to do with when you are born. I was born in November, which could explain why I enjoy the fall so much. I also love how the trees start turning colors, yes even here in Southern California our trees turn colors. I live in a tree filled city, and it is so beautiful in the fall. Then we have the matter of all the holidays that fall at the end of the year. Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, PLUS my birthday, and Mac’s birthday! It’s a busy fun family filled time! There is nothing better than spending time with your family! I get to bake and bake! And use all the cinnamon a girl could possibly use!!! In the fall all of the new shows start, and there are always good movies on TV! I love to sit in bed or on the couch, curled up under the blankets, eating soup or drinking coffee (of course!) watching movies. The moves that come on the family channel are my favorite movies! Fall is just so full of so many wonderful things! I’m just looking forward to enjoying every part of it!

I’ve neglected this blog! I’m bad about keeping it up to date and continually writing in it. I need to be better! I need to make time to do it! I have lots of things going through my mind, and lots of new exciting stuff happening in my life! So, I’m going to start writing more, and see where it takes me! Hopefully I’ll make so new friends, and have some new adventures! And I’m glad I have my followers along for the ride!!!

a day in the life of a 2 year old.

Here's my Sweet girl. Notice the large pile of head bands sitting in her lap. And that FACE of determination (she's reaching for more headbands, trying to gather them all up)

This is her saying "look mom, I can do it!"

Her, Finished. Striking a pose. I love that she topped it off with a flower. She is her mothers child!

Her face just cracks me up! She's like "uh, why are you laughing at me crazy lady!" lol! I'm still laughing!!!!

I have to say that this is the most fun I've had in all my life! Its hard being a mother to a 2 year old! wooo is it hard! especially on day like this. 1 birthday party, 1 baby shower, 1 cranky 2 year old (mad at mommy because we had to leave the jumpy house to go to a baby shower!) and 1 emotional mother because lack of sleep and stressing over her being drama at the baby shower.

We got home after the "fun" and I was tired, had a headache, my stomach hurt. I just wanted to lay in bed and cry. (I held back the tears!) but this little sweet angel, got in bed with me, and started putting on all of these crazy headbands, in such a crazy way! My headache started to go away, and my stomach no longer hurt, and I felt energized again. The best part is when she gets all close to me, and gives me her little baby kisses. and says "I none you boo boo Mommy" OH MAN! makes EEVERYYY better!!!! I'm so lucky to have her in my life!!!! So blessed that this little life was put in my hands to take care of, and mold. But the funny thing is, she's molding me!!!

PS... she dropped the F* bomb at the baby shower! OMG! not cool!

Too Funny!!!!

Portrait

This is my Beautiful friend Tatiana, and her WONDERFUL husband Jonathon! They are Pregnant! Couldn't you tell by the baby bump? The picture in this picture, was taken by, ME! can you believe it?! It looks so professional! Right?! Yea, That's RIGHT! I'm aspiring to be a photographer! So, anyone out there want to let me take their pictures??? I guess I should post how the pictures look and not just how they look printed on the wall... Stand by... I'll work on that! ;)

Keeping Busy!

Well, My darling little angel face is in Mississippi this week. 9 days to be exact! Its been good and bad so far! (we are at day 5). The bad part has just been missing all the little funny things she does and says. The way she gets in bed with me early in the morning, and gives me her sweet baby kisses, and tells me she loves me. Or as she puts it "I none you boo boo mommy"... okay, gotta stop, here come the water works! The good part has been that I've been getting lots done around the house. I was able to clean the ceilings, and the fans, and the floors, and the bathroom. I've been cleaning everything in my path! And I've been doing some sewing projects that I've been waiting to do for a while now! Like I made these Pillows for my bed. And guess what I made them out of... Yes, a friends old bride maids dress! wow right! Thanks Suzy for donating me the dress!!!

I have to say for someone who has never had a sewing lesson, and, doesn't practice much, AND using fabric from a brides maids dress. This is some pretty darn good work! I'm impressed! and YOU should be too!

Soooo, anywho, that's what I've been up to! What have you been up to??

Ruche!!!

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My Mothers Day....

(My Mothers Day Gift)

Well, I haven't shared this with my 9 followers yet... but... I'm in process of a separation/divorce. I married my husband when I was 22 years old, and, now I'm 27, and looking back, I realize that no one should get married that young... maybe not even at 27... but regardless... this is my situation. I think that at 22, you don't know what you want out of life yet. You don't even know what there is to want out of life. And, now that I'm a little older, I see that. I only hope I can pass that information along to my daughter, and I hope she listens (my mom is saying... yea, like you listened to me??? ha!) lol.... okay okay... yea mom... go ahead and say it "ya told me so"....

Anyway, My husband and I had a good life. But, after time, and after growing up a little, we both wanted different things with our lives. I want to be out in the world, mingling and meeting new people, and breathing fresh air. And, He likes to sit on the couch with his computer in his lap watching his reality show dramas. We were living as room mates, and, we had our issues as well (which I won't get into) but, the bottom line is, neither of us showed interest in being married, or working on our marriage. I did make 1 HUGE mistake, I don't regret the mistake, but I do wish that it would have happened in a different way. After months of each of us doing our own thing, I started building a relationship with someone else. Not a physical relationship, but a relationship none the less. I did spend time with this person, and I had to come clean about it. And I did, and obviously my husband wasn't happy about it. We did try to go to counseling, but, (even though he puts it all on me...) NEITHER of our hearts were into working it out. I'm a firm believer that actions speak louder than words. And his actions were "cool.... " and his words were "lets work it out" but, nothing happened to make be ever believe he wanted that. And I can't continue to live with someone who puts little or no effort into something that should be MOST important. And I can admit that I didn't put much effort into it either after a while. I was glad to be out of the situation.... He and I agreed that we must remain friends because we have always been friends, and because we have a daughter in common. And she will ALWAYS be in our lives, and for that, its MOST important to remain friends. I helped him with his budgeting, and his check book. I let him come do his laundry at my place, with my laundry detergent, and my electricity, and my gas. I've cooked him dinner a few times so he can spend some time with McKenzie (even tho we split her 50/50, its nice to spend time together and all).... We have remained pretty cordial thought it all, and its been quite nice.

And then Mothers Day came. And, SILLY ME expected that he would have done something for me for Mothers Day. I thought, maybe he'll come over, and make me breakfast (with my food from my fridge), Or wouldn't it be cool if he came over, and did my dishes and vacuumed for me. Or at the very least he could have gotten a card and had McKenzie draw in it and give it to me on Sunday morning when I woke up. (you know, cause Mothers Day is like X-Mas for Mommies, we enjoy surprises and all...) but, no... NADA.... well, he did send me a text message. I guess that was.... thoughtful? I don't know... I tried to make the best of it anyway. My sweet sweet girl did give me the best mothers day present, with out even knowing what mothers day is. She came and got in bed with me around 6am. She kissed me and said "I love you boo boo mommy" and she laid on my chest, first tummy down, and then tummy up, and then she rolled over, and put her feet in my back, and then she gave me more kisses, and somehow, some way, some time, she fell asleep. And when I finally woke up, I looked over, and see this sweet baby, snoring away with her little Minnie Mouse tucked in her little arms. We spent the day at my moms, and it was a nice day. Very low key, and I did have to leave early because I just kept getting choked up over the fact that, I didn't even get a mothers day card......... a simple card.... I guess that's too much to ask for.... SO, now I know to not expect much. And I'll always remember to be grateful for the gift of McKenzie. She's THE MOST beautiful child that ever lived... Looks just like her mommy... :)

PS... I guess I should mention that Kel said he had something for me.... but not until Tuesday... And not to sound like a bitch.... but Mothers Day isn't a surprise day that pops up outta no where, and its NO SURPRISE that its on a Sunday, and Sunday is the day that you celebrate mothers day. NOT TUESDAY.... I mean... Think about it this way... I have McKenzie on Fathers Day weekend. What if I said, "Well, You can celebrate with her on Wednesday, because that's your day with her" How awful would that be??? to be sitting around on fathers day, with out your child, because its not your day? But instead, I have to take time out of my day, to go and get him a card, and have McKenzie draw in it for him, and then take her to him on Fathers Day, because that's the day you Celebrate it, not the following Tuesday....

I prayed this morning. I prayed that God would help me get over it, and to help me stop crying every time I think about it, and pray to not take revenge on the situation. I'm going to have to keep praying....

I'm too sexy for my shirt.... to sexy for...

I had a photo shoot today… it consisted of me, at my desk, while I was supposed to be working… I just couldn't’t resist. I’m not really sure why I had the urge, but…. Oh, I remember now… someone told me my hair looked cute today… so I couldn't’t let it go un-documented. AND that is what inspired the photo shoot. I was totally getting into it. I was making love to the camera… aka… phone cam… do you know how hard it is to take a good pic of yourself on the iPhone? It’s pretty hard! Especially when you have your iPod playing, and you can’t hear the click of the camera. But you know I worked it anyway! I had to. SO…. Here it is.. Office Chic… lol!

oh, Hi....

Yes? I'm busy... how can I help you???

Hmm?? yea, I'll send that report right over....

No, you can't have a taste of my coffee!

this one should have been edited out... but... I went for it anyway! lol

HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!

Mornings

What is about mornings that make me feel so refreshed, and alive??? I wouldn’t say I’m a morning person… I’m a huge grump in the morning! But once I’m up, and I’m awake, I love the morning! In the winter, and early spring, I love to look outside, and see the cold air mingling about. In the spring, I love to open my window to find a bright blue sky, and birds chirping to each other. In the summer, the mornings are always nice and cool and fresh. It feels so good to open all the windows in the house and let the fresh air in. Mornings give me hope. A fresh start to a new day always has the promise of hope!

This morning, was a wonderfully gloomy morning. Just the kind of morning I love actually. Everything is quiet and peaceful. It’s the kind of morning that you can really open up your eyes wide, and not be blinded by the sun shining in your car window. It’s the kind of morning that makes you think about life, and living, because you sure aren’t thinking about heading to the beach. I love wonderfully gloomy mornings.

Facebook

So, I've deleted my Facebook account. I used to have an obsession with FB, I had the app on my phone, and I would check all my friends status' every chance I got. I would all day be thinking of something clever, or dramatic to say to my FB community. And then, I felt as if my little world was being encroached upon. Someone who could of cared less all of a sudden cared a little too much. Everything I said or did was being watched. And I hated that feeling.



SO, I decided to DELETE my account. at first it was hard. I would reach for my phone every few minuets to check status updates. I'd be thinking about how I wanted to tell the world I was in line at Starbucks again, even though I swore I was quitting. But after a few days, it got easier (its only been 4 days as of this post). Its kinda nice to not be a slave to it. I have so much more time to ponder the real things in life. I have more time to spend with the ones I care about. I'm not always worried about checking to see if someone commented on something funny I said. Or if everyone loved the pictures I posted of the cutest 2 year old to ever walk the earth!



It just doesn't matter anymore. There is something sort of freeing in that. After I deleted my Facebook, I decided to delete my Blackberry Messenger Account as well. I kinda like being "out of reach" "disconnected" I almost feel like getting a basic phone that can only be used for calls and text messaging! and simplifying my life even further... but, lets not go too far so fast... baby steps! its all about baby steps!

The New

I have been trying to blog for weeks now! I have been so UN-inspired, and going through Major life changes.... Which I would love to blog about... But its not the right time!

But there is something that I can share. I start a new job Monday!!! That's right, I got a little promotion!! Ur looking at the newest ISS Rep! Fancy right? I'm going to be the new Inside Sales Support Person (so politically correct). Which means I get to call all the accounts that are too small to visit, and charm them with my wit and charisma, since I can't charm them with my good looks, since I'm INSIDE sales! I guess its a good thing that I don't have to go and meet with customers. This way I can keep my dress code on the COMFY side! Like today for instance... Leggings and a T-shirt dress... I might as well be wearing sweats and slippers! and I AM NOT COMPLAINING! trust me! I love love love the low key dress code I have! Sooo, I'm gonna do EVERYTHING I can to keep it!

The job sounds like its going to be fun! Hopefully I'll be good at it! Hopefully I'll be so good that they will give me a huge fat raise and lots of commission checks! That would be nice! but... probably a dream that isn't gonna come true!

I'M GONNA TRY TO BE BETTER AT BLOGGING MORE OFTEN! I JUST GET SO BUSY, AND I FORGET!!! I'M GONNA BE BETTER!

hearts hearts hearts

mac, sporting pink and hearts

There is one thing, that is my favorite, and will forever be my favorite… maybe this is the one thing that defines who I am, and what I love, all wrapped up into one… that one thing is… VALENTINES DAY!!! I love it! I love everything about it… I know I know it’s a cheesy hallmark card made holiday… and it’s not that I love the holiday… its all the things that go with it… I love PINK, I love HEARTS, I love PINK HEARTS… what could be better than that! don’t you just get a huge smile from ear to ear when you think about big pink hearts??? I love to decorate my life with pink hearts!!!! When all seems wrong with the world, I just remember all those pink hearts that I love so much, and it makes me feel so much better!!! Like I said… its not the Holiday… It’s the HEARTS! And I love that everywhere you go during the middle of January, and February, there are big, small, med, soft, hard, bright, light, fruit, chocolaty HEARTS! EVERYWHERE! I LOVE IT!!!

playing favorites

Recently, someone was asking me a lot of questions... What’s your favorite movie? What’s your favorite song? What’s your favorite food? My answer to most of those questions was "I don't really have any favorites... I like everything"

Is it weird that I don't have any one thing that is a favorite???

I have lots of favorite songs, and movies, and foods, and clothes. But there isn't anything one song or movie, or anything that I can call my one and only all time favorite.

When asked what my favorite movie was, I replied, "uhh, hmm... Well I love the movie Little Women". Which is true! I do love that movie! But I also love a dozen others.

Every other song that comes on the radio (or on my Pandora Station “Corinne Bailey Rae” playlist) is my all time favorite, and I just have to turn it up and rock out… or, grove out… because Nora Jones, and John Mayer isn’t really “rock out” music… Right?

What does that say about me? That I'm indecisive? That I don’t have good taste so I just like everything? That I’m shallow, and everything is “good enough” for me… By the way… I do feel like I’m shallow… I hardly put deep thought, or meaning into things… or at least I feel like I don’t… Or that I am capable of choosing just 1 thing, and being satisfied? Is it that I'm unsatisfied??? Now, I think I've just figured it out.... I’m never satisfied... This is something that I hear often... Or maybe it just means that I love so many things, that I can't just choose one, so I choose them all! I'm a Lover! I can't help it!!! I don’t know what’s wrong with me… I feel like I’m searching for myself, but I have no time to find me… Sometimes I feel like I don’t even know nor have the words to say what I mean, or how I feel, or what I want to do, or how I want to be… I’m feeling really crazy! What’s wrong with me??? I don’t mean to sound like a whiny brat… I’m just feeling lost today… Can someone come find me? Thank you much! (in the words of my 2 year old!)